Dear Lord,
I am so tired. I want to give up but I don't. I am financially emotionally and mentally stressed. I don't know how I am going to survive. The next year or so, I have way to many bills. I cannot pay them all. I am on the verge of filing bankruptcy for all my bills. The student loans, truck payments, medical bills are getting to me. I also have pet bills to pay as well. I need help. I want to put my life in your hands.
I have a neighbor who has treated me in a bad way, still married and thinks it is okay to be in a relationship. I have felt more like a neighbor with benefits, a punching bag, that he does not really want me in his life. He thinks it is okay for his girlfriends to come spend the night with him, or he is in touch with his last girl friend for the sake of a phone. I have felt his little digs at my well being.
I have my mom living with me. Again I hope it all gets better soon. I don't want to live off credit cards to pay bills, buy clothes etc. I want to live with freedom for all burdens even when I have them.
I want to go to my room or somewhere private and just cry until I can no longer cry anymore. I need to play the lottery just to win enough to pay off all my bills.
Thanks for listening to my complaints.
