July 31, 2014 Long due Post

I am at work for the moment. I will try to post stuff off and on more. I will not make any promises but will try.

I am single and alone. I hate that feeling. I love someone who does not really love me or want me in their life only to screw me, play video games and to ignore me most of the other time. I just felt used and after he said what he said it just confirmed what I felt.

He said "there was no love, no attraction, I don't like you, I don't hate you. Something about me seeking attention and I have psychological problems" Also I am a "CRAZY BIPOLAR LIKE BITCH". Really after telling me you love me, just so show he never meant those three words "I Love You". All because argued over stupid video games and I yelled at him when trying to tell him he did not get me these but got me those. Really. Yeah I am pretty darn angry about it. Come to find out he is still married, now I am an adulterer (if that is such a word), but his wife was filing for divorce so she can marry someone else. He has also told someone on a phone in a store that he got this game for a few of his friends and only a few play it, even I don't play the thing. I am, I was trying to finish school. Thanks for the support and putting me down.

I don't understand why people things it is okay to talk to each other that way. It is just so wrong on so many levels. They want you to tell them what your feeling and when you do the get defensive and if you don't they get defensive, cannot win there.

I finally got my mom moved down here. I now have 5 dogs and 1 cat, yeah. I have a small zoo. Only thing missing is the bears, giraffes etc. My relatives to you know those chimps and gorillas that we are so closely related to but your family wont admit it.

Any how I will in chaotic mode. My sentences and words may not make since sometimes I think I am ADHD. Oh well. I will have to get back to work.