May 24, 2015 letter to exroommate

I have seen/known it from the time we moved in together that you never really had any feelings for me at all, that you never really cared.  Your actions never matched the words that you spoke. I was the stupid one for believing that you were totally different though your past was not perfect. You are just the same as my dad, ex's and no I will not be or stay with anyone with those traits any more I would rather live alone than keep putting myself through this time after time. It is like having been a war, you think you have forgotten but something happens, noise etc and it all comes back.

I started to loose all respect for you as a person, I could not ever trust you with anything and your constant mood swings, and I could not ever believe in anything you had to say. You never ever kept your word to me which was a major turn off, comparing me to your sister & othesr another major turn off, as well as the other things I have just listed. You did not understand my being a diabetic, you thought I could be just like you in so many ways, but I am not you, you compared me to Jay and your Sister did you not ever realize that I was just me. Nope. You were not my ex's either but you did a lot of things that reminded me of them including my dad. I never told you how I felt because I dont knoow how many times you told me you did not care, or I just did not want to fight with you about it because I was always in the wrong and you were always right.

You put charges against the rent you owe to me. You owe me this respect & consideration which I never got from you and your sister. I never walked into her house done as I please I never insulted her over the dogs or the state of mess her house was in, how she raised her kids. It was okay for her to call the dog food I bought Tip crap, the furniture I brought back from my moms junk or crap. It was okay because you thought it was, but I am not to talk like that to her. How about the times I took off my job to take you to yours, the blow out on my truck when you drove 90 mile an hour down the road that tore off my bumper & mud flap, the dome light all of these you said you would fix but never did. I had to put gas in my truck when you and your sister ran it out because I did not have anough to get me thru the week or day to work. Or how about the emotional and mental abuse that I received due to the internet or something stupid. I even paid rent and bills when you got the washer & dryer. I even paid your sisters rent when I tried to pay for my half of the rent - but that was not how you wanted to do things. As for me getting my way and getting what I want. I worked hard for everything I got. No one, no man, woman or child has helped me to get where I am at now. It was okay for you to tell me that to treat your sister like family but when I asked you not to cause a scene I got the meanest, dirtiest look (honestly that is what my dad did to me and he too did not care). It was okay tell me it was not okay for your sister to be without a vehicle but hinted it was okay for me to be without mine so she would not miss work or run her kids here and there. I done alot for you and your sister but to have you treat me with disregard or like a pile of shit that was just wrong. You took whatever problem you had with me out on my dogs, you accused my mom and us not training them very well. You basically put my family down but it was not okay for me to say anything negative to you about your family and kids. How many times did I take care of Tip, clean up after dog crap and piss at the apartment and at the house. I did not complain maybe a little dramatic at times but really. You said you would help my mom when they almost burnt the house down, u said we would go one weekend but dumped us for your sister to move a piano that never happened. You wanted to go to my moms on a Saturday & come back on a Sunday that was not really fair to me when I don't get to see her every day. Everything was done when you wanted & when you felt like it. You had rules for my family if they moved down here but none for your family. You called me rude, inconsiderate, selfish and a few other words but I think that how you was describing yourself because that is how you treated me.

 

I did not know I had herpes until I just decided to get checked, I thought my health problems were due to the urniary tract infection that never went away & the constant yeast infections. My aunt who is a diabetic is having the same problems as I am and she has only been with one person her entire life. My being a diabetic complicates my life something you don't understand, or maybe you just did not care to understand. I did or use to get blisters on my lips when I was younger from swimming in the lakes, my mom did have that checked out at that time they did not diagonis it as being herpes they said it was due to the pollution in the lakes so who knows how long I have had or where I got it. Did you know you can have herpes & never know until you have a breakout. Mine is from my diabetes my system being so low and down. Being a diabetic means my imune system is affected.

You are mean spirited, cold hearted man who treats people in a bad way. Some day Karma is going to bite you in the rear end. You do people wrong it will come back to hit you 10 times as hard as what you did to them.

I hope you and your girlfriend make but honestly you are going to do her the way you have done other women - bcz you think it is okay. You have no respect for others nor for yourself and I feel sorry for you because of it.

Shelly D. Scott
620-870-8506
ShellyBautista@hotmail.com