They say April showers brings May flowers, but they did not say when it rains it pours. I have had to fix my truck yesterday about to loose my rear end, not really but felt like the monks were chasing me every now and then. My exhaust pipe on my muffler about fell off so every time I hit a bump I would here a ding sound. Then I went for a walk came home to turn on my dryer guess what. It did not want to start, like rats. I could not get the plate off the back to see if lent was causing the problem or if there was a belt busted.
I am one of those if I can fix it myself I will do so, calling repair man is the last resort.
I keep having this weird feeling that the ex roommate will want to move back in. I hope to god that is wrong feeling. I do want someone else in my life to call me weird, waco, nuts etc. I am a very emotional person. When I am upset or mad I throw things and I scream like a shrew. I do not blame people for my failings but I get blamed for theirs.
Now I said I don't want another man, but it be nice to find someone. I do not want someone to abuse me, call me names, or try to make me feel little. I also don't want someone to come in and threaten me or my pets. I do not deserve that, no woman does. For some reason I keep finding these men that has had some sort of past life history of mental illness, craziness etc. I also love the men that when you tell them your financial problems bam, they are asking for your account information. Please help me to collect this money from this person. All I need is a bank account, and the rest of ur info. Dude I am not stupid. But you try to explain things to them and they don't listen. They are either foreigners or american in a foreign land. I am stuck here, i am being kidnapped etc. I just dont believe them unless they can show my proof of the tragedy in their lives.
I am still looking for a roommate. I have not found one you. I do not even talk to his sister. I guess she believed him and whatever texts he showed her. I never bashed him or talked down to him. I do complain about how i am treated either here on in facebook. I asked her (his sis) if I filled her head full of crap. She said she was not going to get in the middle of it and something else about bashing. I just called her, did not speak to her but left voice mail because that is what I got. I told I am sorry for whatever it is I have said, or ask probably should not have said or asked and I will not bother you anymore. I have kept my word.
I do keep my word to the best of my ability, but tired of those that do not. I am tired of asking for help and told I cannot, will not , do not want to or I am in the middle of something. What gets me is they expect me to drop what I am doing for them and if don't then I am rude, ill mannered, etc. My dogs were treated badly because I was supposedly mean to his but you know I don't remember being mean to his dog (ex roommate). No I don't want someone else right now.
I am now considering bankruptcy just to get out of debt. I am tired of the majority of my money going to doctor bills, taxes, credit card, student loans, plus the regular bills. I was told by the attorney I am border line for chapter 7 but may qualify for chapter 13. So I have to get 6 months worth of check stubs, and 3 months of bank statements plus my credit report. It be nice to repair what credit I do have. I was told that if I filed bankruptcy my chances of becoming a federal employee will be hard. I do know I cannot file on my student loans which will give me a chance to rebuild my credit which is good.
I guess i fill up a month plus on what is going on. I have more to say but I better get back to work.
