I am talking to you this way because I still get to emotional to talk and Sunday I just could not talk to you or get way from you fast enough and I do not know how to talk to you without getting emotional and you really don't like that nor do you care.
Define the word Like me? Why did you like me? Your words never match your actions. I have felt that you never really liked me nor did I feel like you really cared for me.
Do I believe that you like me for me? No. You wanted me to be more like you & sister.
Do I believe that you like me so that I would help you and your family? Yes, my family never really mattered you had one set of rules for my me and family and none for yours.
Do I believe that you wanted me and someone else at the same time? Yes, just had that feeling.
Do I believe that you treated me like my dad who took his frustration out on me and my mom due to stress, anger etc? Yes, accept you never hit me you just did it is emotionally and mentally. The only good thing was that you never hit me because that would have been a big mistake and something I wont cower from.
Do I believe your like both my ex's that the only time you spent with me was when you wanted, felt like or need something? Yes, I was there more for you than anything else.
Do I believe your like my 2nd ex? Yes because of the anger & frustration problems.
Do I believe you had sex with me and someone else while you was living with me (I had several someones before you to do that to me, only wanted a friend with benefit but never a benefit to me only to them)? Yes, I did not deserve to be treated that way. I deserve someone who really wants me, willing to hang out with me. When did you hang out with me of your own free will, did something I wanted to even though you would not have or did not like it. Never!!!
Do I believe that I can trust you , depend on and that you will keep your word? No, you never done any of that. You broke your word to me several times. You have given me every reason in the world to distrust you. I could not really depend on you, everything was to be done in your own time and in your way other words when you felt like it.
Do I believe that I can come to you for anything and help? No, you have proven to me that I can only depend up on myself. I have asked for help, advice on finding mechanics, parts etc for my truck, but I either got no answer or just plain ignored. I even tried to get you to work on the truck when you was at the shop and I would have paid for it. I even asked you for help for my mom, I got nothing from you but empty and broken words.
Do I believe you had any feelings for me at all, that you cared? No, you were with involved someone else but had sex with me and me being dumb I allowed. I allowed a lot of things that should not have happened but kept my mouth shut because I did not want the arguments and such.
Do I believe we were ever in a relationship? No never did because you had someone else and you did not want a relationship with me, we were only friends. (Me being there for you but you never there for me). I was more of a friend with benefit.
Do I believe that you fixed my truck as a courtesy? No. You fixed my truck for another reason and I did not ask you to. I have been after you to fix the belt on the truck, the ball joints or struts, another rim etc, even when you worked at the shop. I just stopped asking, I have even stop asking for you to help me find a mechanic to get it fixed even after you left the shop. I just stopped asking you for anything when you never responded or followed through when you said you would. I do not have the time nor the energy to nag someone to get something done or to put up with someone giving me an attitude from the nagging.
Why do you like me still? You made it plain you wanted nothing to do with me you even blocked me from your phone. So I have left you and your family alone. And now you have girl friend, someone else you was interested or whatever you want to call it. My feelings never really mattered anyhow. So why do you expect me to continue to ask you for help? So you can tell me no, your busy, you will in your own time and so forth. You also made it plain that your sister did not want me texting or anything else of that nature so I assumed you did not want us to be friends either, I have deleted her number from my phone book as well. So I have left you all alone the best I could.
You hurt me really bad. I am not hung up on my ex's I just have major trust issues. Nor will I go back with them. I have done a lot to help you and your family out. And I have done whatever you wanted, movies, restaurants and I was never asked what i wanted to go see or do. All I got for my being nice, caring about you , and helping people is my truck tore up in more ways than one, being called names, screwed out of 2 months rent, and a few other things along with someone taking their frustration, problems & stress out on me and my pets (I was never mean to Tip, accept when I grabbed him by the scruff of his neck to push him off of me). You never ever kept your word to me or to my family (keeping your word was what mattered the most to me than anything else you have done to me). All I got was nothing from you and some accusations. Before you think to bring up the refrigerator, washer & dryer and other charges. You need to think about me taking off my job to take you to yours, loaning your sis my truck and you driving my truck when you worked at the shop, and paying her rent when I tried to pay for my half of the rent. I have also paid months rent plus the bills when you got the washer & dryer; having to give up some personal bills and other things to make sure major bills get paid not counting the stuff you put me through. I am not going to continue because this is pointless and you never really cared. Not once, NOT ONCE did I complain about any of it and maybe I should have but you know it would not have made a difference because you did not care about me at all.
How can I believe that you still like me when you moved out? Had another girl friend or someone else you was interested in. I know you were never interested in me & you took your stress, frustration, etc out on me and my pets. I just cannot believe you still like me and if it is the truth I have to wonder why. I honestly don't understand people, men. I should not have ever asked you about the truck. I don't have a boyfriend, or anyone else. I am just tired of finding the same type of men over and over again. I am not sleeping with anyone or sleeping around. I just don't want a man in my life anymore.
I will not be made to fill small and insignificant, like I don't matter not by you or anyone else. I am playing WOW again when I can afford it, finishing school and getting a 2nd opinion on my health and going back to Church. I have deleted you from WOW and off my phone.
You have a good life and please leave me alone.
