I wish I was stronger person. I am so tired of being weak. I have lost myself again.
I don't know what else to say. I guess I will feel sorry for myself.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
March 30, 2012
Well I done it again. I found another man who wants me to be a friend with benefit while he is interested in someone else. I don't think so. We can be friends but without the benefit. I am no one toy. I have news for him no more sex. No more anything. I have been more of a friend to him and his family than he has been to mine.
Why do I keep finding men that are that way? All they want to do is use you, abuse you, cheat on you and lie to you. They never mean what they say unless they speak to you in anger then that is when their true feelings come out.
OH I finally had an STD test. Yes it came back positive for herpes type 2. I have no idea who gave it to me. I have also found out that my Aunt who has the same type of symptoms I have has them too. She has only been with her husband and after he passed away which I would say over 20 years ago, and no one else has herpes too. Guess what she is a diabetic as well. So I am not sure if I got mine from someone else or it is another complication due to my being a diabetic. I keep having urinary tract infections as well. Another complication to being a diabetic.
I came home my 1st home to be with my mom and son for a week. I had to take off work, 40 hrs of vacation or loose it. I have had a blast. I was going to down size some more but did not accomplish much. I visited with my mom, helped her out some. I also spent some time with my son when he was not working. We went to see Hunger Games it was good movies. I spend to much money when I come to my moms and go out with my son. lol. I wish I can hep my mom out some more with the house and things. I feel so bad and guilty.
I will be going back home tomorrow. I have to get back in time to pay the landlord the rent. I wish I could fix my mess and find a house of my own.
Any how I hope and pray things go good for everyone. I know I need to post more here and it seems like the only time I post anything is when I am in a sad or bad mood. I will try to do better.
Take care,
Shelly
Why do I keep finding men that are that way? All they want to do is use you, abuse you, cheat on you and lie to you. They never mean what they say unless they speak to you in anger then that is when their true feelings come out.
OH I finally had an STD test. Yes it came back positive for herpes type 2. I have no idea who gave it to me. I have also found out that my Aunt who has the same type of symptoms I have has them too. She has only been with her husband and after he passed away which I would say over 20 years ago, and no one else has herpes too. Guess what she is a diabetic as well. So I am not sure if I got mine from someone else or it is another complication due to my being a diabetic. I keep having urinary tract infections as well. Another complication to being a diabetic.
I came home my 1st home to be with my mom and son for a week. I had to take off work, 40 hrs of vacation or loose it. I have had a blast. I was going to down size some more but did not accomplish much. I visited with my mom, helped her out some. I also spent some time with my son when he was not working. We went to see Hunger Games it was good movies. I spend to much money when I come to my moms and go out with my son. lol. I wish I can hep my mom out some more with the house and things. I feel so bad and guilty.
I will be going back home tomorrow. I have to get back in time to pay the landlord the rent. I wish I could fix my mess and find a house of my own.
Any how I hope and pray things go good for everyone. I know I need to post more here and it seems like the only time I post anything is when I am in a sad or bad mood. I will try to do better.
Take care,
Shelly
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Mar. 10, 2012
I hate, I mean I really and truly hate all men. All they can do is nag, bitch, gripe or whatever it is you want to call about anything and everything. They can play loud music, talk to you how ever they want too, make you feel really small like.
Roommate wants to know why we are no longer close. I am not at his beck and call. He never does anything with me, for me nor can I depend on him. All I ever do is run after him and his sister. He can make up all the rules for someone to play by but when they do and they don't do what he wants he gets pisst. I am not allowed to get pisst or show any emotions. He keep threatening to move out.
On top of all this I had to fight with ATT to get my internet working. They said I had Uverse out here where I live. RIGHT!!! Not, could not get the internet connected or stay connected, roommate had an attitude with that and me on top of it all. It took me a whole week to get it fix, and all it had to do with is my account not showing up. I kept getting past around from one department to another. Dumbasses. Hey I kept telling you my account number is not working. Must be a mixture of men and blondes working together.
I also have to put up with other peoples rudeness on my job. I cannot talk on the phone without the coworker yelling for help, or the other fellow coworker not pitching in, thinks because he is on a release of some form means he does not have to help out when it is needed. We are short handed and my boss is having to help else where and others are either sick or have appointments to keep.
I am at the point in my life where I need to finish school, keep myself employeed, get out of debt and to find a house. I have my mom to worry about and my son who thinks he is a man but still a child. Does not yet know how to think like a human being.
I guess enough bitching. I will catch you all later. Night Night
Roommate wants to know why we are no longer close. I am not at his beck and call. He never does anything with me, for me nor can I depend on him. All I ever do is run after him and his sister. He can make up all the rules for someone to play by but when they do and they don't do what he wants he gets pisst. I am not allowed to get pisst or show any emotions. He keep threatening to move out.
On top of all this I had to fight with ATT to get my internet working. They said I had Uverse out here where I live. RIGHT!!! Not, could not get the internet connected or stay connected, roommate had an attitude with that and me on top of it all. It took me a whole week to get it fix, and all it had to do with is my account not showing up. I kept getting past around from one department to another. Dumbasses. Hey I kept telling you my account number is not working. Must be a mixture of men and blondes working together.
I also have to put up with other peoples rudeness on my job. I cannot talk on the phone without the coworker yelling for help, or the other fellow coworker not pitching in, thinks because he is on a release of some form means he does not have to help out when it is needed. We are short handed and my boss is having to help else where and others are either sick or have appointments to keep.
I am at the point in my life where I need to finish school, keep myself employeed, get out of debt and to find a house. I have my mom to worry about and my son who thinks he is a man but still a child. Does not yet know how to think like a human being.
I guess enough bitching. I will catch you all later. Night Night
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